Woh didnt know the countdown reach so fast to zero. Today afternoon i bid goodbye to her. Never know it is this hard to say the word goodbye and know what it meant to say goodbye. I have been like lost something or could have say something missing in myself. Feel so empty when i just reach home. Dont know what i want to do simply lie on the sofa and sleep for the whole afternoon i guess. All this time my life been busy whenever she was around me. I like fly here fly there just for the sake of her but now when she gone all seem to stop. It like my world suddenly just put to a halt. This feeling hard to endure. Missed her when i was standing there watching her car go by. Wanted to see her for last time but hate to see her part with me. I know somehow this day will come. I have been thinking ever since she manage to get to postponed her BM subject. I was happy for her though and sad at the same time.
Somehow i think it best for her to be at home with her family where all worries was lost to some point it was zero. Rather than seeing her stress and home sick i rather sacrifice my own self benefit for her happiness. I thought i have been prepare for this day to come but instead when it come i would like it to stop just at that very day very minute. That doesn't seem to be working though. I cant be so self fish to just ask her by my side all the time i should have let her go be with her friend. To not be able to mix with my friend i feel the pain and emptiness in my very self but that it because i don't have the chance since she have all the privileged to enjoy and to be with her friend i should just let her go for a while. Rather than her suffocated in my arm why not let her breath a new fresh air.
Lao po have fun ohh at hometown and take care.
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